Well, maybe not ever. But here’s a list of what happened in the last five hours:
-I planned to wake up at 7:30 to daven, shower, and study. I woke up at 9:30, and only had time to study. Now I feel unholy and dirty.
-I’m sick, but I just took off school for Yom Kippur and will be taking off more time to go home for Succot, so I really can’t justify missing any more class.
-I’m in an eternal state of “Do I really want to go to law school or not, and if not, what DO I want to do?” I sometimes picture myself as a forensic analyst, but then tell myself there is a reason I’ve been avoiding any type of science-type classes. Then I get mad at myself for not taking a more well rounded course load.
-I’ve been spending too much time with the boyfriend. I think my roomates are annoyed. It’s not their right to be annoyed (because we spend time at his house, not mine) but I don’t want to get on their bad side.
-The meeting I was supposed to go to at 12 was apparently at 10. I never got the email, the boss asked me if I forgot and is meeting personally with me later.
-I have to give my advisor reasons why I want to go to law school so she can write a reccomendation letter for me. I can’t really think of any other than, “I’ll make a lot of money” and “I want my parents to be proud of me”.
-I went to the coffee shop to get my standard feel better drink, a tall iced skinny caramel macciato, and realized that even though i had shlepped my whole purse with me, and even had to go back to one of my classes because I left it there, my credit card is still at home.